Value her :)

A New Day !

I am getting back on the track now. The fog which was getting denser every passing day has completely lifted and I can see everything clearly now. I don't believe that I am actually writing after so long. So many things happened in past couple of months.. Seasons changed and so did emotions and feelings. There were few strong emotional hits. I wanted to go on a self proclaimed exile but then I gave everything a second thought. I gave a second thought to me as well and reminded myself that I am a real person and life is full of trials. We don't know where we are heading in life because there is something called destiny which plays a very important role in everything we do or say or see.

Everyone at some point in life will have an year when a yearly celebration is not welcomed (may b anything: Diwali, holi, Christmas, anniversary or even birthday). We should tell ourselves that it's ok. There were good days and there will be better days coming up. Loosing hope in oneself cannot be a solution for any problem. If something is not working out, we should give ourselves permission to step back and take a look at other activities. If u r not happy, give yourself permission to say NO to a party and be honest with yourself. 

As I read once, Life happens when you are busy making other plans. So just let it happen. Remember that Pain is also a gift which will make u stronger. In last few days I learnt that Staying unhappy cannot be a solution.  Instead vent out your anger (in the form of activities like gym, jog or work), cry a river and just move on. Going back to a person and complaining will never bring a solution , instead it will make things worse and will leave u emotionally damaged.

Now I keep reminding myself that Silence is the best way to let someone know that they did you wrong.

‎"Its easy to joke on a Sardar, but It's too difficult to be a Sardar"

I read this post somewhere.. I know I should write something on my own here but just cannot resist posting this as I have always respected,liked and loved Sikhs. :)

"I was standing at jalandhar station when my attention went towards a Sikh youth standing near me wearing a Black turban having a long beard and wearing a kirpan over his shirt.

After a while, one local train arrived, which was totally packed. The Sikh youth tried to alight the train but failed to do so. Just then a voice was heard from the back coach 'Sardarji Barah Baj gaye' (Sir it's 12 o'clock!)

The Sikh youth looked over at that voice maker who was a young Mischievous type of person and instead of showing any anger made a smile towards him.

The smile made was so enigmatic that it seemed as if some type of truth lies behind it. Not able to resist my temptation, I walked towards him and asked why did he smile at that person who teased him.

The Sikh youth replied, 'He was not teasing me but was asking for my Help'. I was surprised with these words and he told me that there was a big history behind that which one should know. I was eager to know the History and the Sikh youth narrated:

During 17th Century, when Hindustan was ruled by Mughals, all the Hindu people were humiliated and were treated like animals. Mughals treated the Hindu women as there own property and were forcing all Hindus to accept Islam and even used to kill the people if they were refusing to accept.That time, our ninth Guru, Sri Guru Teg Bahadarji came forward, in response to a request of some Kashmir Pandits to fight against all these cruel activities.

Guruji told the Mughal emperor that if he could succeed in converting him to Islam, all the Hindus would accept the same. But, if he failed, he should stop all those activities. The Mughal emperor happily agreed to that but even after lots of torture to Guruji and his fellow members he failed to convert him to Islam and Guruji along with his other four fellow members, were tortured and sacrificed their lives in Chandni Chowk. Since the Mughals were unable to convert them to Islam they were assassinated.

Thus Guruji sacrificed his life for the protection of Hindu religion.

Can anybody lay down his life and that too for the protection of another religion?
This is the reason he is still remembered as "Hind Ki Chaddar", shield of India. For the sake of whom he had sacrificed his life, none of them came forward to lift his body, fearing that they would also be assassinated.

Seeing this incident our 10th Guruji, Sri Guru Gobind Singhji (Son of Guru Teg Bahadarji) founder of khalsa made a resolution that he would convert his followers to such human beings who would not be able to hide themselves and could be easily located in thousands. At the start, the Sikhs were very few in numbers as they were fighting against the Mughal emperors. At that time, Nadir Shah raided Delhi in the year 1739 and looted Hindustan and was carrying lot of Hindustan treasures and nearly 2200 Hindu women along with him. The news spread like a fire and was heard by Sardar Jassa Singh who was the Commander of the Sikh army at that time. He decided to attack Nadir Shah's Kafila on the same midnight. He did so and rescued all the Hindu women and they were safely sent to their homes.

It didn't happen only once but thereafter whenever any Abdaalis or Iranis had attacked and looted Hindustan and were trying to carry the treasures and Hindu women along with them for selling them in Abdal markets, the Sikh army although fewer in numbers but were brave hearted and attacked them at midnight, 12 O'clock and rescued women.

After that time when there occurred a similar incidence, people started to contact the Sikh army for their help and Sikhs used to attack the raider's at Midnight, 12 O'clock. Nowadays, these "smart people" and some Sikh enemies who are afraid of Sikhs, have spread these words that at 12 O'clock, the Sikhs go out of their senses. This historic fact was the reason which made me smile over that person as I thought that his Mother or Sister would be in trouble and wants my help and was reminding me by saying off 'Sardarji Barah Baj Gaye'. "

Its a humble appeal PLEASE dont make fun of RELIGIONS as every religion is as pure as urs. !!!! :)

Life is Great.

Facebook, Orkut, LinkedIn, Twitter, Naukari, Monster, Myspace, Yahoo, Gmail.. Some of the websites I always use...

Some are social networking sites, some are personal, some are professional. The cacoethes to know the world more and more makes me to visit these sites again and again.

Few things made me nostalgic today and that's when I started thinking that how peaceful life was when I was unaware of all these.. When I dint know how to work on computer and when I dint have a phone. When my only timepass were my books, my novels and few calls on my Landline phone..

The morning walk with mom and dad, the Breakfast at home, a family get together almost every evening, peaceful sleep in the night, those dreams and the dream to full fill them, watching Tom and Jerry and Aladin every day, hours of talk with mom and sisters, exam tensions and the happiness after results... I miss these all.. I feel like singing " I wanna grow up once again" now.

Its strange to see how the life flips in couple of years. As if ye kal ki hi baat hai , we were so happy and today loaded with tension, work pressure, lack of time, self consciousness, abhorrent desires...

My quota of the patience for this life seems to be over.. Yes!! How can I think so..!! I am not even 25...!! But why does life seem to be some twisted mismanagement of destiny?? I wanted to know the world but now why do I feel that the reward of my curiosity is worse than not knowing the world or the people who stay here or the way these people think..!!

Why do we all have to grow up? Why is it more inevitable than the sun rising in the east?

Just one broken dream and it was like colour had drained from the bricks, the trees, the sky and the faces around me... Now when I try to sleep in my room, all I could do is stare at the cracks in the walls. It hurts like acid. Then I can feel the little "V" between my eyes..

Still if someone asks me, "How r u?" , I smile and say " I am fine , thank you" .

I still keep reminding myself that Life is great. Love the life and love everything about it. I smile again.. :) :) :)

Thinking about this....

"Many a true word is spoken in jest"

How true is this?

Running from the shadow..

She did not know what was she thinking.. All she knew was that she was lost in a thought and it was not allowing her to sleep.. Tried to push those thoughts aside, she looked at her phone.. No message yet.. Fixed her earphone at the end of her cellphone, stared at her cell phone in a dilemma whether to call or not to call.. She decided to go with the negative thought.. "Not to call" appeared as the better choice.. Stared at her phone's screen again, touched the File folder, which demanded the password.. Once that was provided by her little finger, she started exploring her phone.. The images, the videos, the songs.. She put on the earphones, hit play and turned up the volume until it hurt her ears.. Closed her eyes.. Suddenly the music stopped.. She could hear the crazy wind.. she opened her eyes and found herself standing in the middle of a forest.. She wasn't scared but the thoughts she was trying to push away with the help of loud music, started haunting her again.. She could feel the moonlight on her face.. She was running.. As if running from the thoughts.. From the memories.. Deep in the forest.. There was no halo further.. She guessed this is what she wanted.. To run into the darkness.. Away from the stupid world, away from her memories, away from everything and everyone.. She kept running.. She was surprised because she did not feel tired.. All she wanted to do was go into an unknown direction.. All of a sudden something hit her.. Very hard.. The darkness did not let her notice the giant tree standing there which stopped her from moving further.. She fell on the ground.. It was cold.. Very cold.. She tried to get up but her body had no strength left.. She wanted someone to come and pick her up.. She was thirsty too.. She tried to move her hand and could feel her cell phone.. She struggled to open her eyes and the forest was gone.. She was staring at the ceiling of her bedroom.. "What a Dream !" ,she thought and fell asleep again...

Ok friends, another attempt to write a short story.. I know I am not good at it.. :P :D

Unwanted Wanted

What do u do when u wanna get rid of something desperately and the very same thing keeps haunting you??Everywhere... Every time..

Getting started with something is never easy. This wasn't easy too.. To get rid of it was more difficult. But just when the situations came under control, just when everything started looking next to perfect, it was back.

This time louder, stronger, leaving an effect that left the affected people trembling with anger, fear, anxiety and frown.

Friend and book

I read it somewhere: Reading an old book is like meeting an old friend.

The joy of meeting a friend is inexplicable. In past few weeks I met few friends and i was elated for sure. Thats when i decided to read one of my favorite books which i enjoyed reading for the first time. 

I called my friend and requested him to deliver the book to me. After collecting the book, i was trying to find time so that i could start reading it.

For me, It is always reveling to read a book but lack of time doesn't allow me to do so :(

One fine day, i came back from office, tired but not sleepy. Kept my shoes back in the shoe-rack, hanged my shirt and trouser on the pink hook matching the colour of my room's pink wall ;) , put on my night cloths , washed my face and legs and hands, disturbed my towel to dry my face,hands,legs and was about to switch off the lights when i saw this book lying on my desk. As i was not sleepy, i picked up the book. Read the title- Twilight. Opened preface page and there was this line which caught my attention 3 years back and made me nostalgic again: 

When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, it's not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end.


I could not read further that night as i was strolling down the memory lane :)

Happy or Sad!!

"I want to be happy", this is the most common answer you get when u ask people what they want from life.

What can make you happy??

I keep reminding myself that i have to be optimistic, think positive and a positive attitude will lead to a merry life. So i keep telling myself that i am cool, i am happy , i am smiling, i have  loads of friends, i have a great job, i have everything under the Sun that one needs to be happy. I also keep reminding myself to smile a lot, because if i smile, i can argue with me that see gal, i am smiling so i am happy. I learnt the art of blocking negative thoughts,dejection,detestation so that i can always see myself in the state of bliss.

Recently i have started thinking that is this smiling, cool, easy going girl really me?? Damn! i am confound to a point , where i do not recognize myself anymore. Of course i am happy but then why am i looking for a reason to smile. Shouldn't i be smiling always? 

Well i am not sad but i hate to admit the fact that i am not happy either.

Uff what am i actually typing? Something even i am not aware of. " Happy" and "Sad" are two of the most confusing words of English dictionary. So let me not think about it anymore. 

PS: A smile follows :)

Muted Words

"I'm getting married" , the words came out of her mouth as she ensconced herself in the chair.. She tried to show a veritable smile in her eyes while her loquacious lips were thinking what to say next.

"That's a great news. when did you decide and what does he do? I want to speak to him."

She dialed his number and gave the phone to him with her fingers crossed. "He is a nice guy", he concluded this after 5 mins of conversation on phone. She smiled again with lots of unspoken words.

She was back home when somethin unexpected happened. He called up and told her, I know you are going to be happy with him but there was somethin between us. Something we did not want to think about, Something i can not forget , Something which makes me sad because u are going to be someone's world.

With water streaming down her face, she realized how much she was craving for these words.
"I'll miss you", this is all she could say before the call got disconnected, trying her best to not to capitulate her feelings.

Too senti, isn't it??  Well its not from a movie or book or tv show. No no, its not any gal's story too. It is Just an imagination. :D

Trying to digest!!

A series of lies...!!!

I still do not know the reason behind it. Even if the person had to lie, it was not necessary to come out with the truth. Shocked, still happy because now the things are very clear.

The Invisible wall

That was the road i always used to take while visiting his house but today there is a gargantuan wall standing there. How unwanted it is!! I hate this wall. I hate to find an alternate road.. I hate to look for another option when this one was so convenient. There is the wall asking me to go back as the route is closed but i know my destination. I just have to figure out how to get there. Left with no other choice, i try hard, and here i am, completing my journey, can see my destination. I run towards it and how happy i am to reach there after an obstacle.

I could resolve the problem because it was a problem i could see. What to do when i encounter something which is not visible? What if there is an invisible wall?? What if i can not see what is standing out there? Won't i try to cross that again and again unaware of the fact that there is something which will never allow me to cross that??

Can anyone tell me how to figure out if there is an invisible wall standing??

Key to success..

As the old saying goes and i quote " Every time i find the key , someone changes the lock". No doubt its true but come along, doesn't the new lock represent new opportunity, new ways to explore the solution!! How would life be like if u get the key to success?? I would say, humdrum, Boring, very boring. What is life without troubles and hard-work!! We can not always sit in our comfort zone and dream about success or successful people. Even if we want to, we should do it only to get some inspiration outta our dream. Coming out of comfort zone, working on our dreams and making them come true, and again looking for next dream will give a true definition to our life. Make your dream your passion and chase it like its the last bus of the night.

Everyone has different meaning of success and your happiness depends on how you define success. Till you are not clear about your views, your life will be like a unsharpened pencil, Pointless.

Unless you are willing to have a go, fail miserably, and have another go, success won't happen.

If u merely think about work, office etc, it again depends on how you consider your work. What is the first thought that comes to your mind(about your workplace) when u wake up everyday?? Do u think about learning new stuffs and going a step further?

If you consider your work to be something u just have to get over with, you can never achieve success. Be excited about going to work and learning from entourage. Set your milestone for each day, achieve it and then with this sweet smell of success, reward yourself.

Successful People are not gifted, or more talented or workaholic. Successful people are those who set their priorities, make their own rules and then work on it..

So be esurient when it comes to learning, don't be swaggered by anything that comes on your way, do not try to obliterate your failure , instead learn from it and remember that the shortest way to do many things is  to do only one thing at a time. :)

Home Sweet home

A hectic day at work... Breakout Area's fun... Cafeteria's timepass.. Long rides.. Bowling.. Roaming with friends..
Sure everyone enjoys all these things but the best time is when u are back home, lying on the bed, relaxed, careless with lots of care around u :)

Self discovery

Alright i know no one can remember what happened at that stage. Neither can i, but i can surely draw a picture. I think this is what happened.

I was in my mother's womb when i heard a soft music. Was it real, yes it was, for the 1st time i heard something. May be someone was calling me out there.. Mum.. Dad... I realized  everyone wanted me out there, but i could only hear. I wanted to open my eyes, i wanted to see everyone but all i could see was darkness.

After a while ,my wait was over. Me, dying to feel the feel, opened my eyes for the first time in the fresh air around me. I was scared. But then i was happy too, happy to be free, to feel the freedom.

Then i felt a warm touch full of care and concern. Was it mum, was it dad, i don't know.

I wanted to attract everyone's attention. I wanted to let everyone know what i wanted in the form of meaningful words. I think i tried my best but all came out of my throat was: aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa eeeeeeeeeeee ooooooooo  hehehe

Alright then i tasted something for the first time. It was sweet and now i know it was honey(mom told me).

As i grew up,i saw and sensed  and heard lots of other things. Few familiar, few strange. Few made sense and rest i was looking forward to learn. That moment i realized that i had a craving for learning, to know new things and to explore the world.

Everything was so unexpected, teaching me to expect the unexpected.

When i learnt to walk,i wanted to cover the whole world with my little legs but all i could cover was few centimeters. hehe Well it surely was an achievement for me at that time.

Curiosity kept generating for everything and then i learnt to ask questions. For everything i was under quandary.  I wanted to know everything. Sunset, Sunrise, Stars, Moon eveything. I was Overwhelmed to see a world outside my house.
The journey of my life started from here, consisting of ups and downs , teaching me to be patient, to look for opportunities, to gain knowledge everywhere and anywhere i could.

Journey goes on and on and on..

To be continued :)

How true !!

What do you do when you feel as if everything you do is wrong?

Came across this question on one of the sites. Now guess what was the answer mentioned there..

Try to blame it on someone else

It may sound hilarious but come to think of it. Lots of people do the same.By Blaming someone ,u avoid or try to ignore your contribution to the situation although u know that there is something contributed by you. Its much harder to look at yourself but if u continue blaming others, whenever the similar situation arises, u end up contributing the same. Then where is the learning?? In long run your arrogance, ignorance, self-judgment turns out to be really destructive to yourself without your knowledge. The worst part is, u always stay with the guilt although u never share it with anyone. To stop this, You should start considering your mistakes as opportunities to grow further. Learn to accept the responsibility for your actions. Don't be afraid to make mistakes. No one is a perfectionist here.I admit that its scary to admit ur mistakes but it only make u strong with an advantage of learning. By developing this habit of admitting your mistakes in front of others with surely make you proud.

Blah blah blah...

Nothing much to write.

Woke up in the morning with neck pain, weekness and feverish feeling.

A lady in my gym got married. lol.

Spoke to a friend who ate the chocolates(homemade) he bought for me because he had nothing to eat in the night. Idiot!!

Started reading a new book- blink.

Missed talking to someone yet did not talk. Stupid me :P

Learnt to edit posts here. :)

Saw a stupid movie(PS I Love You)on Start Movies suggested by someone close to my heart. Guys don't watch this movie if u r in love. Don't watch is otherwise also. Complete waste of two hours except some funny scenes.

A friend didn't answer my call. I hate him so much for this.

Weather was hot so i didn't go out of house.

A bhabhi came home and her kid started crying as soon as i closed the door because it was too loud. I hate kids when they cry :D

blah blah blah

to be continued.... :P

Begining !!

Yes this is my 1st Post here. Heard a lot abu blogs,  read a lot, but blogging now is exciting for sure. People excuse me if u find anything wrong or inappropriate here. I am always open for ideas, suggestions, critics and good comments if u have any :) Feel free to comment. Let me confess this in my very 1st post that i m bad at words(writing) but i guess there is no harm in trying, is there any?
A friend, well  i m not sure whether he is a friend or acquaintance, suggested me to start with blogging. Now i guess its not a bad idea although i m gonna keep it private for sometime. All set for now. :)